I looked and saw the clock read 12.30 pm when I woke up. Now yes, that is late but considering I went to sleep at 6.30 ;7 am I think thats pretty good. Although, I do have things to do around 8pm tonite, but still. Nonetheless, I woke up feeling as I normally did, not hungry; sleepy; alone. All normal, mind you. So I get on PT and I see this forum post about how PT is changing and yadda yadda ya. I'm about to respond but I get sidtracked so I get on like half an hour later. You have a few posts about how, this person (the forum poster for this topic) needs to be in recovery and this other one needs to just get over it because PT changes its ways like how humans change their underwear.
It hits me then! Like a fucking boulder. PT was created as a safe haven, away from people who couldn't understand, for people who wanted to recover, for people who just needed to talk to someone who could understand. I realized then, that all these people regardless even if they do understand and they have everything the next person is diagnosed with. They are, still humans. They can claim, they have the magnitude to sit and actually think about it all on a deeper level than the "normal" can. But they can't! In the end, they still have those outside friends, they still have some ear to the "normal" world. So even if they can understand you because they are going through it with you, they will still think like "normal", even if only for a second.
Its disheartening, because the point of the site is for a community feeling, to feel safe and understood. Not still like the outcast of your school/job/family/etc. Then its even worse when people say "oh! That is normal!" or "Yea,PT tends to do that every so often." NO!NO!NO!NO! You don't condone behavior as such. Your just giving leeway to people to continue their horrible actions, who don't deserve it. PT was made for a community, not a banded site of people to talk about others easily. If that were the case you could have stayed on Facebook, or Twitter or even Myspace.
Its fairly funny, my previous post is thrown up in flames because of how flip floppy I just made this whole thing. Earlier I said its okay to justify someones actions because that is what they are taught, which isn't apart of the norm; ie. " Person A grew up in an abusive home, never had a true friend and was kept from normal activities (such as; watching tv, interacting with other people/children, going to school) They inturn believed all people were cruel and they were worthless..
Anyways Person A, believes that they are nothing, simply because of the way the were raised. Another person who, had the opposite upbringing, would see person A's upbringing as different and vice versa for the other person.
Personally,I believe people can be bad people and still be good. Do you understand? I believe you can be jaded and still be an okay person. But, this is only if I feel you have the power to grow. There some people in this world that I believe just wouldn't make it past being considered a bad person, sheerly because they can't grow.
Example: You have someone who doesn't like jewish people, but only because your family thinks they are bad people. You meet a few people, get to know them, come to find out they are jewish and they are decent people. Nothing like what you were taught. But you allow them to meet your family and your family doesn't get to know them because they are jewish. They aren't thinking about learninng or even getting to know. They accept they are jewish and put them out of their life and mind.
You have people willing to learn and people who are happy to stay in that box they have built. Those are the ones that are bad people. Not the ones who are bad but still good. The bad ones are the ones who have accepted their postion and won't try to learn a new way out of their box. The good ones are the ones who have learned a way out but want to learn another way, just incase their method falls.
Anyways, I suppose my whole day will just be on people not trying to change and in general just not thinking. So maybe its the human mind. Nonetheless I'll be on again later
Au Revoir!!
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